Downtrending is The Newest Bad Word on My List

I'm going to start with the good news so I can get through that, before I get to the bad news and begin to cry. 

Logan's first pair of pants!

Logan is FINALLY pooping again!! :-D I have never been so happy for baby poop!! LOL He FINALLY got his picc line out last night too! I got to give him his first tub bath today... I think he liked it... You can be the judge! I also got to put him in his first FULL outfit, complete with PANTS! He is such a lil fighter... He grunts and groans all the time, even in his sleep! LOL I love him SO much... and I hate to think about anything being wrong with him.








Matison Lee is still being her same old ROCKSTAR self! She is weighing in at 6lbs 1oz! My little CHUNK-A-MUNK!! She is still lingering at taking about 80% of her feedings by mouth. I wish her chunky butt would HURRY and start taking it ALL so she can come home!! :)


Levi is doing very good too! He is doing good with his feedings as long as he is upright and/or in his boppy pillow! :) He is gaining weight at a good pace now. He's up to 4lbs 14oz. I am going to take a bouncer to the hospital for him, the next time I am there.His feedings, however, are almost ALL through his NG tube. He is my lazy baby! He knows he doesnt have to do anything. LOL He takes about 5-10 cc's at a time. Then he just looks at you with a disgusted look on his face and quits. LOL

I was able to be at the hospital today and it was bath day for all three babies. Amy, my favorite nurse, and I had a baby bath production line going on! ;) I also did their laundry on the 5th floor, put them all in cute outfits, and had another baby photo shoot in Logans isolette! :) I love looking at them all TOGETHER and all dressed!! Daddy got there just in time! :)

Daddy and his babies! <3

Now for the bad news. Today during rounds, The doctors were talking about Logan's CBC's that they have been doing. He is seemingly fully recovered from his NEC scare, yet his blood and platelet counts are still countinuing to downtrend like they have been doing. He has already had 4 blood transfusions. The Hematologist that consulted on Logan, seems to think he needs a bone marrow biopsy. They think he may have bone marrow suppression. They are checking another CBC in the morning before any decisions are made. I am absolutely petrified. I haven't googled ANYTHING about it, surprisingly. I know all I will be reading about is luekemia and cancer!! I just want him to be ok and come home!!! I just want them ALL home. I cannot handle this much longer. I can't even be there with them some days! Im going crazy having to sit at home.

Logan, Levi, Matison <3

Please keep the donations coming! I keep having to ask myself what I am going to do when Matison comes home. I am going to NEED another vehicle to get us to the hospital to see the other two. ESPECIALLY Logan! :( I pray EVERY night that everything will work itself out. I hope God is still listening. I have asked for an awful lot lately. <3 Here is just a quick video of the babies... Logan grunts like that ALL the time!!.... and Matison SLEEPS like a rock all the time too. <3 them so much!